Schwetty.

I'm doing it. It as in exercising. Not the other 'it'. Mind out of the gutter, folks. Okay, I'm not technically doing it now but I'm thinking about it which has to count for at least 50%. Tomorrow, I'm popping in a work out DVD (I wonder if I can jam my Jane Fonda VHS' into that little DVD hole) and getting schwetty. M is home with me tomorrow. Know what this means? Pictures. There will be pictures. I might also have her teach me how to work the camera on this phone. Ps, M is 5.

weigh ins and a scale on strike

tomorrow is weigh in day. the problem? my scale is broken. every time i step on it, it says Err. i've taken this to mean one of two things a) i've lost so much weight my scale has freaked out and is out celebrating or 2) i've gained all the weight back and my scale has given up hope. i really hope it's the first and it will be back in a few days with a nasty hangover causing it to leave off some extra digits.

i have not been perfect in this journey. for some reason, i can't find the will power to say no as i was once able to. i have learned a big reason why it's so much harder for me this time though. i'm getting up really early to get a cranky kindergartener and a defiant toddler ready to leave the house within 3 mins of school starting. i then have to take the toddler to his grandfather's house only to rush back and put on a decent pair of clothes and jet off to help in the kindergartener's class. after helping, i head to pick up the toddler who is now ready for a nap even though we have to go get his sister in an hour so i'm seriously entertaining him to keep him awake. after picking up the big, i have to make lunches then nap both of them. at this point, i've had an insane amount of coffee and my stomach is on the verge of a boycott and i'm using the last bit of energy to throw in a load of laundry and straighten up for round two. they wake up cranky and demanding to be held as i'm getting them ready for afternoon activities. by 5 pm, i'm starving and we're rarely home at that point. my choices for food are narrowed and my inhibitions are lowered. i need food. any food. i would eat cat food at that point. i cave and eat something mildly okay then have horrible guilt and end up eating some crap food later on swearing i'll do better the next day. realistically, it never happens that way. i'm on a vicious rinse/repeat cycle swearing the next day will be different.

i'm starting to come up with a solid plan though. i need to wake up earlier and force myself to eat. before i hit the on switch for the coffee pot, something better be cooking. when i pack the kids lunches, i will make extra baggies of approved snacks for me to carry along, even if its just to get me to my next meal. i will make sure we come home for dinner, even if it means preparing extra snacks to hold the kids over until we get home. i wish i had come up with this plan sooner. i wish i could walk away from this saying 'i did it! i accomplished something!' but i honestly don't feel like i did. for this reason, i'm going to continue on with the program for an extra month. i will celebrate what i did manage to do at the end of this month. i will enjoy a burger but maybe skip the bun. i will praise my efforts more and be a little less hard on myself. i will not cave to the feeling of 'oh, i already failed, what difference does it make.' i look at my partner in crime (Fatty) and am amazed at how well she has stuck to this. her will power and desire to change her life is amazing. she is going to be my role model for the upcoming months.

oh, and i will also attempt to do that exercising thing.... ugh. wish me luck.

An all new level of lazy

I have reached an all new level of lazy. Due to some suggesting from Fatty, I now can access the blog on my phone. Do you know what this means?? I can update at any time, including while my actual computer is on my lap. Who's lazy now? This guy.

Missing: Lazy Ass

So Lazy Ass finally went out and got herself an iPhone.  Yep she has a reliable smart phone now (for those of you wondering she is coming off a long-term relationship with a series of crap-berries).  I was so excited! I thought this means that she would have more access to the site and blog a little more.  But just the opposite has happened now that she has it she is so preoccupied with taking Instagram pictures and sending videos and actually being able to send/receive text messages that she has forgotten all about the ability to blog.  So this post is to remind her to download the blogger app and get going!

On another note: the Bible has seriously gone missing.  So I guess we are winging it.  I remember there was something strange during these last few days but I think as long as we both stay on track for the most part we will be good! I also have not been making it to the gym as much as I had hoped, but I made a small change, I take the stairs as much as possible now. I NEVER took the stairs before.  One floor of stairs? Oh wait! Look! An elevator! SWEEEET.  Now even with baby in arm I do my best to take the stairs up and or down.  There are still moments where I do take an elevator but its little things that I think help. I am also working on getting into a sleep pattern again so I can get up earlier and get to the gym at 6am like I did last year.  For some reason I was way more dedicated doing it that early, or at least just getting out first thing in the morning for a run/walk.  I say this as it is starting to look like East Bay is going to get the first rain its had in months, but hey being cold is motivation to run faster. Seriously.

Further, I am starting to compile  a list of runs/races in the area that I am hoping to compete in.  They were great motivation for me to stay active and I hope they can continue that motivation this year. During the cleanse the exercise has not been so important to losing the weight, but after when I can add things like dairy back in I will need to find my balance between diet-exercise again.  For anyone reading this- Do you do any races in the Bay Area? I know of a few that I did last year but I am sure there are many other great ones out there!

Lastly, what I am most excited about is that I have not lost my willpower or motivation completely during this.  There was a moment when I realized I was not losing weight as quickly as I did last year that I started to fall back into my "What does it matter?!" Mind-set but I kept my mind on my goal and stuck with it. 9 days left on the cleanse and I'm going to finish it!

Oh and if you're looking to hang out next Saturday, I will be at the counter. Enjoying my first victory lap of the year withs one sweet potato fries and perhaps I might even be crazy and try out that gluten free bun.

Half-Time! Weigh in & Hello week 3!

Whoa, half way through the cleanse already?! Where has time gone? I'm not really complaining or anything as I really really miss dairy-foods. The gluten free is getting easier each day. Although I'm still dreaming of eating some bread.  This last week was packed full of mixed berries and PaleoMeal.  I haven't been feeling that great so I've been more sedentary than I would have liked.  I have to say that overall I am feeling better. My energy still needs to make a bit of a comeback but I'm finding I am not as tired at the end of a standard day.  Although whoever said exercise gives you energy is crazy. I'm always ready for a nap when I get home from the gym. 

The weight loss has been going slower this time around than last, which I had expected but I was still hoping that I would drop a pound a day like last year. (Wouldn't that be great?!) I'm still trying to figure out how I can pay someone to go work out for me and just transfer the calories they burned into my body. Although I cannot really complain.  I'm walking around in my size 12 jeans that 10lbs ago could barely button.  Now they look great! I"m totally kicking my whale-twins butt, even if it is slower than desired. 

The next few days of the cleanse brings 3 shakes a day.  Not a whole lot of "real" food for us. Once I find my cleanse bible I will give a more detailed explanation of what is coming over the next week but it has been MIA for a few days.  

THE WEIGH IN

Here it is! Weights from the end of week 2 beginning of week 3.  

Contender #1: Lazy Ass

Weight: 138 lbs

Last Week's Weight: 140 lbs

Starting Weight: 150 lbs

Loss this week: 2 lbs

Total Loss: 12 lbs

Goal: 125 (pounds to go: 15)

Contender #2: Fatty

Weight: 161 lbs

Last Week's Weight: 165 lbs

Starting Weight: 170 lbs

Loss this week: 4 lbs

Total Loss: 9 lbs

Goal: 135 (pounds to go: 26)

My personal goal for this week is to get under 160.  I know that it is really only 2 lbs and I should have no issue with it. However in my past loss I get stuck at certain numbers.  I was stuck at 180, nothing I could do would get me below it until I plowed through it.  Then I was stuck at 175.2  for MONTHS it was so frustrating getting on the scale every morning and seeing 175.2.....175.2.......175.1 wait no 175.2.  Towards the peek of my weight loss I was able to get down to 160, but never could break it until I worked my way back up to 165, and finally at the end of last year 170.  So now I'm back to my latest plateau and I really hope I can smash this one out of the water this week. 

Gluten Free! YAY

Okay so a few days ago on a post by The Counter in Walnut Creek, I commented mentioning that they need a gluten free bun.  GUESS WHAT?! They have one! I am so excited.  I still need to stay away for the next 2.5 weeks because I know I will not be able to resist the sweet potato fries, but I know where my cleanse victory dinner will be! The Counter! Have you not been there? You should check it out.  I'm telling you the sweet potato fries are to die for.  They also have burgers in a bowl (sans bun) which is a gluten free option as well, but knowing I can go for the bun without sacrificing my goal to stay gluten free is great!

Here is one of their burgers...not gluten free but they are just so great! You get to pick everything that goes onto the burger from the type of meat, weight, cheese, veggies, toppings, sauce etc. I normally go for the bowl option and get the organic greens, but next time I just might try the gluten free bun! Restaurants are making it easier and easier to be gluten free.  So who is down to join me on my victory dinner? I'm hoping that I can drag Lazy out as well.

My Gluten Baby. I will name it Sean.

See those pictures? Great maternity shots, right? Look at that little baby growing inside of me. Oh wait, those were from a couple weeks ago. Nope, those aren't maternity shots (at least I hope not although it would make a great episode of I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant). This is what happens to me when I eat gluten and dairy, along with a host of other symptoms that I'll spare you from but I'm sure if you use your imagination, you can figure some of them out. I start off in the morning with a flat(ish), albeit, flabby stomach and if I eat as I please, this is how I look at the end of the day. Scary, huh? People stop me an congratulate me all of the time. They make comments about how 'I have my hands full!' or ask if I know what this little one will be. I'm used to it now. I got really offended at first, but seriously, if I saw someone looking like that out in public, I know I'd congratulate them. Along with being giant, I also feel like I'm pregnant. It is terribly uncomfortable. If this (along with blood tests and other symptoms) isn't enough for me to realize I need to give gluten and possibly dairy up for good, I don't know what is. This, my friends, is why I lost 10 lbs. It is almost like birthing a 10lb baby.

I made it to the gym last week. My sil tagged me there on fb as proof. I worked up quite a sweat... in the sauna. Hey, at least I made it to the gym.

I was not very good this weekend, diet wise, as I had a birthday party to attend and an amazing show my friend Ashley was in that I was lucky enough to see. These events come with alcohol and I have no self control. None.

I'm back on the wagon this week and feeling better already. I'm getting my shakes ready and snacking on some veggies or organic chicken broth here and there.

Wish me luck, I need it. Also, if anyone has any self control they'd like to sell me, I'll pay big bucks. I'm currently looking for an app for one on my Kindle.